In the school year 2017-2018 I started my studies at the Royal Academy for the first time. I found myself in a difficult period and was tested by different situations in my environment. My focus on my study was hampered by this and as a result I made the wrong choices. This was reflected in my behavior and attitude at school. The qualities of my work deteriorated and I did not present as before. My mindset was so damaged at the end of the school year that I saw no reason why I should still have to complete the study. I then decided to quit my study for good and lost my passion for art.
Over the past two years I have been through so much and had to stub my toe several times before I could see the truth. These life lessons have made me the person I am today. I fooled myself by looking for a new passion, knowing deep down that I was made to produce art. I had tried everything but nothing was working. In fact, it only got worse. And that was the moment when I realized that I could no longer continue my life like this. I was very embarrassed, but I decided to return to the Academy in humility to resume my study with the right mindset.
I'm glad I took this step and I don't see the past two years as wasted time. Because of this I have grown up and I know what I want and what I do it for. I see enormous growth in my attitude, way of thinking, learning process, work and the way I view the school. I am getting more and more out of my comfort zone and now I see that I get more out of my study and experiment in different areas. I no longer believe in making a mistake or wrong artwork, but I now see all my works as studies and reactions to each other. What I have noticed is that I now also genuinely enjoy my learning process and continue to amaze myself again and again. I now also know that it had to be the way it turned out. As a result, I now also create work that I would never have made before. In addition, I now also give 100% commitment in class and this is also confirmed by the teachers.
I do notice that I sometimes get irritated by the limitations in certain areas regarding the global pandemic we’re in currently. In ways like entering the school building and how workshops are conducted. That is something that I really pitty, because I know that I could get so much more out of my study if this were not the case. But beside that I am still very positive and I am curious about what the future has to offer.